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[Mar. 14th, 2007|11:28 pm] |
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so i really havent even been on this in FOREVER! sooo much has happend... hmmm uhmm we will start where i left off...christmas/break..amazing =) got my car on the road... been keeping busy and all for a while now.. decided im gunna take a year off and work before i go to school cause im not quite sure what i wanna do anymore...oh andddd i have the best b/f in the world.. its our one month today actually..and i never thought i would love anyone else for a long time..but wow..this boy... well aaron.. hes amazing..im soooooooooooooo happy like he is my everything:) and yeah we were definatly the most random out of no where hook up EVER but we are goin strong and i love him =) im just so incredibly happy with everything right now...my friends are great...family..not soo much at the moment..but we will work on it.. hahah and yeah i just love my life =) horray for brittany being TRUELY happy =D |
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[Dec. 23rd, 2006|02:53 am] |
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i havent updated in over a month
sorry!
but things are starting to brighten up for me i tinhk =)
i still have my rough days once in a while
but im not gunna let him bring me down
hes not worth it
not one bit
sure i still love him to death
but im not IN love eiyh him =)
he will always be my best friend
and for that.. im thnkful =)
yeah so tonight was good! surprise party for cody little.. he seemed really happy =)
i love all my friends so much
ive figured out who the true ones are and who i can trust with everything
i love you all!
christmas break!
gunna be a good one =)
lots of plans.. lots of ppl.. busy busy busy
i hope everyone has an awesome holiday!!!
thats all for nowww! =) |
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[Nov. 16th, 2006|05:48 pm] |
my rib hurts =(
so much
i have so mcuh shit on my mind right now too
this whole week i have
w/e
my life blows
i dont evwen know what to do with myself anymore
im just a fuckin wreck
and im a worthless waste of life honestly
i dont wanna be here |
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[Nov. 1st, 2006|10:19 pm] |
i havent updated in forever
i think its time lol
so ive changed alot lately.. lost alot of weight, talk to alot of new ppl, hang out with alot of new ppl, outlook on life is compleltly different
but as much as i try to change and make everything better.. i still tinhk about him.. day in and day out
i would love to just have one fuckin steven free day.. not one thought not one memory ntohing
it kills me thinking about him 24/7. He is my favourite person in the whole world! and i dont want him to be! i just want him to be nothing to me.. just someone whos there, just another person in the world... but he means fuckin everything to me. I just wish it would stop
everytime i gain like an ounce of happiness and get back on my feet again.. i tinhk about him.. i tinhk about what we had and how much i fucked up and how much i coulda changed so we would be together still and i would be happy again and then.. im fuckin flat on my ass again... stuck.. not knowing what to do with myself
dont get me wrong i am having a heck of a time right now i love my friends to death.. i love alot of stuff that has happend lately
but he is constantly in my mind.. even when im happy.. hes right at the back of my mind and i cant get him out
i just wish.. he would come back to me.. for like 2 seconds.. because like the way we ended it.. it didnt really seem finished you know? like it was something that wasnt suppsoed to end there.. there needed to be more reason to it or soemthing? like i dunno i cant even explain but i wish we could be back together for like 10 seconds just so we could end it the right way! not the way it really ended.. cause im stuck.. with thoughts... questions in my head and no answers to fuckin figure shit out
but lately i also realized some other stuff.. what do i have going for me? like ntohing...well thats how i feel anyways.. but i know.. i have the greatest friends.. i made some new ones lately too and they are awesome.. ive grown really close to them and i love em all to death.. and really nothings truely THAT bad in my life which is good.. but i feel as if im never gunna get anywhere in life.. i wonder if thats a common feeling? fuck i dunno im gunna stop babling now |
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[Oct. 10th, 2006|05:28 pm] |
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life fuckin sucks </3 |
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[Oct. 6th, 2006|11:37 pm] |
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i hate how everyones doing awesome.. they all have it made.. doing good in school.. being happy, having b/fs.. i have fuckin nothing! i set myself up for soo much then just fall on my face.. i never shoulda let him into my life.. im a fuckin wreck.. i never shoulda set those high goals for myself.. cause they will never happen.. i hate faking being happy.. cause everyone knows im truely not.. i just fuck everything up... |
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[Oct. 1st, 2006|02:41 pm] |
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so update
last week was HELL! i was sooo fuckin sick =( didnt get off the couch like all week.. had some baddd incidents and yeahh i dunno.. lost about 15ish pounds.. dragged my ass outta bed friday afternoonish to go to school for the terry fox run stuff.. couldnt find my belt.. my pants were falling offfff.. haha and everyones like omg! you look so sick and skinny.. im like yeah =( and it doesnt seem to be comming back really.. but i look healthier though which is good. This weekend was good.. friday night went and saw Jackass eith Trev.. it was awesome =) then i drove me and Trev to timmys to meet up with the boysss ( Jeff,Mendrick,Andrew and some other kid) it was fine we just sat.. drank my tea and stuff hahah then saturday was a chills night =) anddddd today i worked.. and later on im going to a game.. codys comming to pick me up.. i tihnk my girl Vince is gunna come too =) woot woot i love her.. and we are gunna have another lovely chat! but yeah thats all for now.. ciaoooo |
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[Sep. 18th, 2006|05:43 pm] |
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i miss him so much...
i wish he would realize how much he means to me..
and come back..
im notihng without him.. im a mess </3 |
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| update timeeeee |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|11:27 am] |
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soooo its been like 2 weeks since my last post soo i tinhk im gunna update today =) im sitting here.. a tad hungover.. hahah lastnight was moniques party.. it was pretty awesome.. everyone was pretty tanked! monique was fuckin halarious lol anyways yeah at the end i started feeling a little.. sick soo michelle drove me kyle and aaron to my house.. and i started to sober up so we just chilled and they slept over and they just left like 5 minutes ago lol... i made a phone call.. and got someones dad on the line.. thanksssss for that greg hahahaha oh well it was funny "do you always hit on married men brittany?" lol k so yeah.. and then school lately has been going alright i guess =) hmmm what else.. what did i do last weekenddddd.. ohh jenny n me hung out =) it was fun.. we went to mcdicks and met a boy "Grrrrr" lol and then mondayyyyy jolivel n trevor came with me for a drive to richmondhill..my first time driving the highway alone! ahh but it was fine we didnt die =) and yeah.. thatsssss about it ohh.. friday night Steven came over n made me dinner =) since im home alone this weekend and cant cook.. it was yummy n cute of him =) haha i miss that boyyyy </3
anywaysss im done i tihnk |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2006|11:34 am] |
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so i forget when i last updated i tinhk just befroe school started.. anyways haha.. schools not too bad so far.. Co op,history and bio. and i know ppl in every class so thats good too lol
So friday a bunch of us girls went out for Alannas bday dinner it was friggin sweet.. the food was yummy hashah then we went back to her house called up some ppl and partiedddddd! that was good too!
Lastnight i worked 11-7 then i showered and shit and chilled around at my house then went out with Cole n Dust and Sean it was alright i guess..we went to Robs party! lol he was hammed
blahh work til 6 today but then Stephen is comming up =)
and work all day open to close tomarrow with Kaitlyn! yay!!!
then hanging out with him <3 hahah
im out though cyahhh |
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